Colorful Paper Sculptures and Patterns by Maud Vantours
I know that I shall meet my fate,
Somewhere among the clouds above;
Those that I fight I do not hate,
Those that I guard I do not love;
My country is Kiltartan Cross,
My countrymen Kiltartan’s poor,
No likely end could bring them loss
Or leave them happier than before.
Nor law, nor duty bade me fight,
Nor public men, nor cheering crowds,
A lonely impulse of delight
Drove to this tumult in the clouds;
I balanced all, brought all to mind,
The years to come seemed waste of breath,
A waste of breath the years behind
In balance with this life, this death.
An Irish Airman Foresees His Death
— W. B. Yeats
I’m not a fan of poetry but you know what’s interesting about Simon and his father, Iain? We know nothing about their relationship before Simon’s death. We know nothing about them and all we see is Iain rejecting his son after he killed his mother in his rabid state.
Yet, there’s something they share, something Simon seems to hold dear: Yeats. He would have chosen a quote from Yeats as epitaph, which means a lot.
But what about his father? Look at this scene.
He’s reading a book, “W B Yeats Selected Poetry”. And what he’s reading is not a random Yeats poem, no. The one he’s reading is called Reconciliation. (Oh sweet irony.)
Some may have blamed you that you took away
The verses that could move them on the day
When, the ears being deafened, the sight of the eyes blind
With lightning, you went from me, and I could find
Nothing to make a song about but kings,
Helmets, and swords, and half-forgotten things
That were like memories of you—but now
We’ll out, for the world lives as long ago;
And while we’re in our laughing, weeping fit,
Hurl helmets, crowns, and swords into the pit.
But, dear, cling close to me; since you were gone,
My barren thoughts have chilled me to the bone.
We can hear him mumbling this part “since you were gone, My barren thoughts”. And all we can think is that he’s reading this thinking of his wife.
I really like Simon, and all those details are really heartbreaking. When he comes home, you can see how small he is, the child he was when he left home (because being 21 is very young in a whole life), how his parents must have been worried and happy at the same time to see their depressed child moved by dreams and hopes. And then death wiped everything. Twice. First Simon, then his mother, by the hand of Simon himself.
I didn’t really know Emmett Scanlan before watching In the Flesh but when I see how he managed to play this scene, how he managed to be a child in front of his father in spite of the fact that he’s more imposing than him… Compare the Simon from this moment and the Simon running in the graveyard because “reflex” (even Steve doesn’t buy it :D)…
This serie will be the end of me.
Yes, but pushy punk rock Kieren coming on strong to Rick, and Rick being so surprised by it, and also surprised by the fact he kinda likes it… So he grins and lets Kieren lean in way too close, not even bothering to try and excuse his actions.
for some reason this makes complete sense canonically (is that a word??)
like there must’ve been a reason he was barred from the legion?
and it’s just so weird because i just see him as a timid little boy with 20,000 layers and a waddle walk, but then BAM he’s practically THROWN gary into a table, and then sometimes he just starts cursing like a sailor in front of his PARENTS and JUST WALTZES INTO THE HOUSE OF A MAN WHO HAD KILLED SEVERAL PDS SUFFERERS INCLUDING HIS OWN SON.
and where the hell does it even come from?? 2 seconds ago you were acting like a startled baby deer? what the hell kieren? HOW DID YOU HAVE A PUNK PHASE YOU ARE TINY.
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Anonymous said: Do you have any feelings on the latest WTNV controversy? (That the co-author of 'Summer Reading Program' episode has been revealed to write underage rape fanfiction, and as the creator of Tamika's character, people are skeeved out and upset by this.)
I’ve read the accusatory post in question as well as the rebuttals from people who say that the AO3 tags don’t actually do justice to the fic, that the fics were actually victim-focused and not actually erotic.
Personally, I think it’s absolutely despicable to police someone’s ID this way when all you have for a justification is literally “won’t someone think of the children!”, and I think that it’s especially despicable in fandom where we might have 10000 reasons for writing specific tropes or kinks that people outside of fandom might view as harmful. You don’t know if she’s a victim. You don’t know how she’s treating the topic. You don’t know if she wrote those fics when she was 12 years old herself and trying to explore sexuality in ways that were comfortable and safe for her. You just don’t fucking know, and more importantly unless she signed up with the AO3 name “Ashley Lierman” or linked to her AO3 account from LinkedIn, you weren’t supposed to know. It seems like someone deliberately tied her real life professional identity to her fanfic identity, which is bullshit, absolute BULLSHIT. you do NOT out fanfic writers. What the fuck. That’s what got me fired from my job 11 years ago, that is the #1 first fucking rule of fandom, that is why we would rather pull an article than endanger people in the fandom who feel less safe because of it. You do not out fans. You do not out fans.
It’s possible that someone might one day go through my Prince of Tennis fics and try to blacklist my work because I’ve written numerous fics about various characters, aged up significantly, who started out as 11 and 12 years old in their respective canons. Or criticize me because I wrote fics where two teens had sex at age 15, or decide that I’m unfit to do my job or represent fandom in public because I wrote a fic where a gay serial killer and a sociopath practices dubious consent with bloodplay and then gets a happy ending, or because probably somewhere in my recs I’ve bookmarked fics that feature non-con or abusive relationships or incest or who the fuck knows. If someone wanted to go on a witch hunt, they’d have plenty of material.
And the same thing applies to every single person reading this. If someone wanted to connect your fanfic handle to your real life and then take a stroll through your kinks and tags looking for dirty little secrets, then use it to create controversy and try to ruin your professional career, are you sure they wouldn’t be able to? I wouldn’t take that bet. And I’m way more horrified by the fact that someone thought this was an acceptable way of creating dialogue than by the content of her fics.
I think there absolutely is a time and a place and a context for discussing whether someone’s fictional work should factor into their professional reputation, but the way to have that discussion is not to fucking stalk them on AO3 and then screencap the content of their fics in order to out them on Tumblr. Absolutely disgusting, and the quickest fucking way to ruin fandom as a safe space.
How did he even…????
1. The first-person POV shots
Every once in a while, they use shots of the characters besides Kieran (mainly his mother and father) looking directly into the camera. This isn’t used too often, we normally see actors looking at another actor or past the camera. Even interviews will sit the interviewer next to the camera so as not to have the unsettling effect of the actor staring at you.
This show is not only not afraid to use it, but uses it BRILLIANTLY. We are often but subtly slipped into Kieran’s point of view using these shots, feeling directly the impact of his father’s let-me-distract-you remarks and his mother’s awkwardness and pitying looks. Just the way the camera’s used forces you to feel what Kieran’s feeling, and to empathize more with him, has such an impact on the empathy and general mood of the show. It also gives you a significantly better grasp on other characters, like his parents, allowing you to really focus on their facial ticks and tells.
2. The make-up (AKA mousse)
So you know how at the end of Beauty and the Beast, seeing the human version of Beast is kind of unsettling? Cuz you’ve grown so used to how beast looks, how he fits into the world, and his personality, and suddenly seeing it on a person is kind of weird?
This is sort of like how they did Kieran’s make-up. The show likes to pale things, there’s so much white and unsettlingly pale prison-esque colors in the beginning, even Kieran’s parents are super pale and wearing muted colors. But Kieran’s white. Not pale, but straight-up white. We get used to this, we get used the the parents’ color and the pale background, and we feel comfortable with it.
So when we see him with the make-up, it’s unsettling. It’s like someone got a horrible fake tan, is wearing darker make-up than they should, and is standing next to their paler sister. He looks fake. Next to his parents, he sticks out like a sore thumb, especially because they left his pale hair and lips. It looks unnatural, and it just draws the audience’s attention to Kieran’s fish-out-of-water status. If he had darker parents, and he had dark hair and lips, and the background was colorful, it wouldn’t have had nearly the same dramatic effect. We can almost feel his discomfort with the make-up, and how no matter what he does, he’s still just different.
I just… mad props to the director, camera operators, and make-up department. This show is so darn good so far, and I can’t wait to watch more.
Can we determine how many “in the flesh” fans there are on here? Would be cool to know!
Please reblog if you’re into it!
kittysnotahappybunny said: Ked, I have sooo many feelings about Kieren and Jem and their amazing sibling relationship!!! They've been pretty close before Kierens suicide, just imagine how angry Jem must have been when Kieren killed himself. "You didn't even leave a note" kills me every rewatch :( And then he comes back with PDS and she's so angry. And I just think it's so realistically portrayed how her attitude fluctuates between anger and relief and antagonism and sibling love. Especially paired with her PTSD and 1/2
2/2 involvement with the HVF. It’s all just so perfectly complicated and multidimensional. How many female characters get to have so much depth nowadays? And Kieren feels so guilty and is so hurt that his little sister just can’t accept him but when she needs him he’s always there for her. And I love how he doesn’t push but when she says she needs help he’s immediately like “okay, we’re going to get you help”. This show is just so perfect,I’m in love… Sorry for the feelsdump,have a nice day <3
NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR FEELS DUMPS!!! *squeals and runs happy circles around you*
I have so many Jem and Kieren feels oh god… I’m not even sure where to start so I’m just gonna pick up with how they must have been before his death because geezus, she was the only one who knew where he would be, which meant she knew where he used to sneak off with Rick, she probably helped him cover who knows how many times when he was sneaking around with Rick and he TRUSTED her to keep that secret. She must have taken it SO PERSONALLY when he left her, and she should, it was personal, she was young, she loved him, she thought he loved her, and then he just left her… the same way Rick left, no note, no goodbye. He disappeared and he left her and she must have thought she needed him.
And when he comes back, ohmygosh, when he comes back and he’s in the therapy group and they ask him what he’s looking forward to most and it’s JEM because she was the light of his life, maybe one of the only lights still burning when he left, and how many things does he want to say to her? How many words die on his tongue when he sees the way she looks at him the first time she sees him after he comes back?
She loved him, she lost him senselessly, and the next time she saw him alive was when she caught him consuming her dead best friend. The next time she saw him was four years after he died, four years she spent growing up too fast in a deadly, war-torn world that taught her the creatures that hunted her and her companions were not human, were demons, were monsters. The next time she saw him, she carried all of that with her, and couldn’t stand the thought of such a monster wearing her brother’s skin, taking his place, making a mockery of the scars she’d earned from losing him.
The way he comes to her in the third episode, and just confesses to killing Lisa, the way he lays that at her feet and he doesn’t ask for forgiveness, he doesn’t offer excuses. He is not telling her for himself. He is telling her so that she knows he understands why she is angry, so that she knows he knows it was a terrible thing he did, and that he doesn’t blame or judge her for thinking so. He tells her because he took something precious from her - first himself, then Lisa - and there is no way to repay that, and there is no moving past it unless it is acknowledged. He is telling her because she needs to hear it in order to forgive herself, as she has spent so much time blaming herself for not stopping him. And she, in return, admits that she thinks she should hate him, but she doesn’t.
And in that same moment, if I recall, he admits he is glad she didn’t kill him. She could have. She maybe should have, according to her past experience. But she didn’t, and he’s thankful and DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH THAT MEANS?? This is the kid who wanted to disappear so badly from life that he took the matter into his own hands… and he’s admitting that he was wrong about that, too, and that he is grateful for the second chance Jem has given him. This time, he is glad to be alive. This time he won’t leave. The way she asks “are you?” breaks my heart ughhhhhh and then he follows with “I am” like the admission is breaking him apart and you can just HEAR all the guilt and regret, how much he thinks now that he shouldn’t have left then.
Then later, when she gets Rick’s message, the way she bolts off shouting for Kieren… she can’t lose him again.
Ugh, watching him try to figure out what is going on with her. The way she defends him when their dad starts laying into him at the start of season 2… jnsz;djvn;srjhyh At the end, when she finally admits she needs help, this strong, beautiful, capable, amazing young woman finding the strength to admit to one person, her beloved brother, that she isn’t doing well and needs help…. gosh. The way he folds up any other plans or questions and just puts himself at her disposal, willing to do whatever they need to do to make it better for her because Kieren never got that help and then it was too late and he will never, ever let that happen to Jem. Ever.
These two are so… ugh I love them. I just have so many feels for them. Thanks for sharing yours!!! <3
chead said: hey what's up with the "!" in fandoms? i.e. "fat!<thing>" just curious thaxxx <3
I have asked this myself in the past and never gotten an answer.
Maybe today will be the day we are both finally enlightened.
woodsgotweird said: man i just jumped on the bandwagon because i am a sheep. i have no idea where it came from and i ask myself this question all the time
Maybe someone made a typo and it just got out of hand?
I kinda feel like panic!at the disco started the whole exclamation point thing and then it caught on around the internet, but maybe they got it from somewhere else, IDK.
The world may never know…
Maybe it’s something mathematical?
I’ve been in fandom since *about* when Panic! formed and the adjective!character thing was already going strong, pretty sure it predates them.
It’s a way of referring to particular variations of (usually) a character — dark!Will, junkie!Sherlock, et cetera. I have suspected for a while that it originated from some archive system that didn’t accommodate spaces in its tags, so to make common interpretations/versions of the characters searchable, people started jamming the words together with an infix.
(Lately I’ve seen people use the ! notation when the suffix isn’t the full name, but is actually the second part of a common fandom portmanteau. This bothers me a lot but it happens, so it’s worth being aware of.)
"Bang paths" (! is called a "bang"when not used for emphasis) were the first addressing scheme for email, before modern automatic routing was set up. If you wanted to write a mail to the Steve here in Engineering, you just wrote "Steve" in the to: field and the computer sent it to the local account named Steve. But if it was Steve over in the physics department you wrote it to phys!Steve; the computer sent it to the "phys" computer, which sent it in turn to the Steve account. To get Steve in the Art department over at NYU, you wrote NYU!art!Steve- your computer sends it to the NYU gateway computer sends it to the "art" computer sends it to the Steve account. Etc. ("Bang"s were just chosen because they were on the keyboard, not too visually noisy, and not used for a huge lot already).
It became pretty standard jargon, as I understand, to disambiguate when writing to other humans. First phys!Steve vs the Steve right next to you, just like you were taking to the machine, then getting looser (as jargon does) to reference, say, bearded!Steve vs bald!Steve.
So I’m guessing alternate character version tags probably came from that.
100% born of bang paths. fandom has be floating around on the internet for six seconds longer than there has been an internet so early users just used the jargon associated with the medium and since it’s a handy shorthand, we keep it.